Friends for life?

      As I'm preparing my invitation list for my wedding....kekadang tuh terlayan blues jap :P. Bukan emo, tak tau nk ckp ape yg aku rs actually. Upset, pissed, sad....sumernye all in one la. Kita berkawan kalo blh, nk smpi akhir hayat. But i guess some ppl have different opinion on that take kot?

      First skali, aku  kekadang rasa a bit bengang gak bila ade yg duk bising kat aku "Jgn lupe jemput aku tau for ur wedding".....ndak je aku jawab blk "Ms ko kawin, ade ko pikir nk jemput aku x??". ish....yg mane aku lost contact before nih, ok le jugak. Nih yg sengaja meng"M.I.A"kn diri nih yg aku x blh blah. Tetiba je dh tau dh kawin, even ade yg dh beranak pinak....and thn blh demand lak aku jemput diaorg...grrr :/ !

       Another group of friends pulak....ms kita berkawan, punye lar baik dgn kita. Kira "ko lah kawan dunia akhirat"....kata dia la. But nih bila nk kawin, jgn kata kad kawin....sms kawin pun xde aku dpt! Nk kt aku x reachable....handphone ade (no. tuh aku pakai since 8 years ago ok :P), FB ade, Friendster ade, email ade....ape lg alasan? *sigh* Time susah cr la aku....time dh nk idup dgn 'cinta ati'....kawan tolak tepi la ye?? Mangkuk ayun sungguh  la :P.

      This particular category of friend nih pulak....oh! sedih (bak kata Raja Azura). Kawan dh berbelas tahun. Masa nk tunang dulu....sape lah orang nye yg dtg memalam buta and teman tdo mlm tuh coz they were feeling jittery and all sorts?? Time nk kawin....pepagi buta dh dtg, melangok kat umah dia...just in case if dia nk mintak tlg apape. But did u know what happened?? Not even a smile....or a even a bloody hug did i get! Serious....smpi skrg aku ingat, although it was, like, 4 years ago. Kawan2 lain dtg nk salam dgn pengantin....sumenye happy2 giler, berpeluk sakan. Smpi kat aku....just a handshake yg dihulurkan (if u can even call it a handshake la). And there i was thinking i would be the happiest person bcoz my "best" friend of many2 years is finally settling down.....but....daaaymnnn! i was treated like a stranger. Something broke that day....and it was never mended, even till today :(

        Another friend pun camtuh gak. Ms zaman study, punye lar baik satu geng. Time xde duit, share mkn sama....time nk exam, tiru sama2....time nk gi kelas, gi lmbt sama2...pendek kata, sume nye sama2 la. And the last time i've seen her was more than 8 months ago. Bila call, x angkat, sian hang-up lg....bila msg, x berbalas....anta msg thru FB, pun sama citer....antar friend request, x diapprove2nye.But bila tgk wall kat FB, bukan main active lg! Perggghh....nih satu lg jenis manusia yg aku tak paham! 

       Not sure why....it could just be coincident....but both friends yg  jatuh dlm category nih, seems to be working with a certain body of organization....not trying to generalize but that's the fact :P. Tak tau la kot depa pikir yg depa lagi baguih dr kami nih....ntah la *sigh*.

      Anyhow....i'm still blessed with many other GOOD friends :). Those yg sentiasa amik berat psl hal aku....sakit pening aku....and i luv each and everyone of them!!! You know who you are ;). And that's why iaku takkan mensia2kn those yg aku panggil sebagai "kawan". May it rain or shine....if you need me, just call me....selagi nyawa dikandung bdn, selagi Tuhan mengizinkn.....i will be there by your side :)

Note: Invitation list still tak finalize lg.....tgh duk pikir lg....should i @ shouldn't i be iniviting those so-called "friends" ?*sigh*