If someone were to ask me to describe myself physically.....3 words.....big, fat and ugly. Simple and sweet :). haha....I would never call myself beautiful...never in a million years. IN my younger years, I would always look at other girls and wished that i would look like the rest of them. I have, what u would call, a VERY low self-esteem when it comes to physical appearance. But kalo org yg kenal i, they would never believe it....ever.
I can give a speech in front hundreds of ppl without a hint of nervous in my voice or my expressions. I could well speak my mind, and just couldn't care of what others would say about it. Tapi kalo org sentuh ckit je about my physical appearance....CRASH!! There goes my self-esteem....splat on the floor! I had never thought this is a problem that i need to work it out....until lately :/ .
Lately nih, asal Syed "ter"gurau ckit psl my appearance.... punye la sentap tuh, berhari2! Is it just pre-wedding jitters? I, honestly, don't know. Dia slalu ckp that it was a joke, why take it personally?? The problem is....it is personal!! Who would better understand you than the person that you're about to marry in less than 5 mth? grrr....i tak tau nk marah kat sape. At him? or to myself for being super-sensitive x tentu psl? *sigh*
I just hope that this is a phase tht i have to go thru before the wedding. Need to take a deep breath....and move fwd. Wish me luck....
Saturday, April 24, 2010
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